Before I share these pictures I have got to address the big elephant in the room. Perhaps I am the only one that sees it, but regardless I have to say it….
I really didn’t want to post these pictures. because. of. my. weight.
Sorry to say it,but it’s true. I struggled sharing these images because I really dislike the way I look in them. And this is not me fishing for compliments. It’s just me sharing an insecurity that I have with all of you. I have never really seen myself at this weight, until these images. And it bothers me. Really bothers me. Needless to say I am having a difficult time getting my baby weight off. After 3 months of exercising and trying to eat right I haven’t lost a pound. NOT ONE. uh. I’ve even cut calories extremely and my body just doesn’t want to let go. It’s frustrating. Embarrassing even. But I needed to share it. So you know where I am at in this battle. And you know that posting these takes a lot of courage for me… I am trying to be comfortable in my new skin. And I guess for me posting these pictures is a step in that direction. I have a feeling its going to take me a while to get back to my pre-baby weight. Quite a while. And I am in the process of learning to be ok with that. Its a process indeed.
Whew.
Now that that is over let me get to the good part. THIS IS MY FAMILY. For Christmas I promised my mom we would get family pictures taken. I know my mom often feels jaded because I take pictures for everyone else, but never for us. I try to tell her it’s really difficult to be both in front of and behind the camera at the same time. But that doesn’t seem to matter to her. Ha. So I asked my cousin Tim to take some shots for us.
Once I got everyone to agree to participate in our family photo shoot we set out to get some great images. We lasted about 10 minutes outside because it was freezing. So we had to come up with an indoor venue at the last minute. And of course the most logical place…a machine shop. My dad has worked at this machine shop since forever and I remember going there a lot when I was little. So it was neat to go back there to take our pictures. Not your typical photo spot, but I think we made it work.
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The Scott Family
From left to right: Dustin, Kenny, dad, mom, Andy, Eli, and me.
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To the machine shop…
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Above: Where Eli got his flat head.
(http://reneebooephotography NULL.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/02/scott-4 NULL.png)Above: Tim took all these pictures for us. He is practically my third brother! Love him more than he knows.
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Thanks for this picture. Not often am I in pictures with my little man.
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Carly - Renee if i can call you that..
Like i have told you before you are so BEAUTIFUl and so is your family..
Dont let what society tell you get you down. You have so much more to live for.
once again you are BEAUTIFUL!!!!
Rachel - Great, great pictures Renee! And it does take time to lose that baby weight, but you can do it. I really, really like the shots in the machine shop!!
amy (http://www NULL.anestforallseasons NULL.blogspot NULL.com) - Dearest…
I get you. I really totally get you. I AM you. My baby turned 1 (yesterday!) and I still haven’t gotten rid of the weight from baby #1!! (and this is #3!!!). Anyway….I hate pictures…I try to hide behind my husband and hide behind my baby or whatever might be big enough to hide me. I recently posted my first video tutorial…I hated watching it. …but I was tired of waiting for the weight to come off before trying out video tutorials. I’ve been running…it helps…but not enough.
…and I must say this darling…at least you don’t have the dreaded mommy double chin. I could deal with my hips if only I didn’t have that dang double chin.
…if only there was a pill, right?
If it is any consolation…I’m not sure if you are nursing, but I’ve found that AFTER I stop nursing, things get a bit better. I’ve never found that nursing helps take off the weight…it just makes it stick on me…
…anyway…now that my comment is as long as your post…:)
Lauren Z - You are beautiful. Amazingly beautiful. And I love your transparent heart. Thanks for sharing your family pictures despite how they may initially make you feel. Miss ya!
with love Meme - Timmy my wonderful nephew: what a awesome amazing photographer you are beoming..These photos of us are beautiful..Thank you so much for the wonderful job! They make me smile, just like you always do….love you so much…
with love mom - Renee babe reading your blog almost made me cry…I know, I’ve always known how hard self image can be…..I just prayed that you didnt have to follow my path..But I know how focus and dedicated you are about having a healthy life style. You will win the weight war…
Julia Z - “You were made with such a care, your skin, your body, and your hair are perfect just the way they are. THERE COULD NEVER BE A MORE BEAUTIFUL YOU” Love that song by Johnny Diaz. I’m going to make my girls listen to it everyday! You are a beautifl person!